what does that date mean for you?

So many things have been written and broadcast about the terrible events of 12/14/12, so many political agendas have been advanced, so many heroes named, but we still have not had the guts to look at the serious nature of the real problem.  It becomes more and more clear that Adam Lanza, I rarely say his name but sick as it sounds he was a victim here too, clearly had serious mental health issues, it has not been revealed yet what, if any, medications he was taking, and he had a mother that for all her attempts to help the boy clearly was delusional herself.  I personally would not let my child have a gun under any circumstances, I am not a gun advocate but i am also a realist, we are never going to get guns off the street and out of the hands of people, but I surely would not allow my mentally ill son to have a gun cabinet full of guns, attend shooting lessons, and play first person shooter games, there were many things I am sure that led up to this tragedy but this is the most significant, Adam Lanza was failed by the very people that should have had his best interest at heart, his mother and his father.  I am not trying to say tha Lanza was innocent here, that can never be said, but he was clearly not well, all you really have to do to see this is to look at the picture of him, with his dead thoughtless eyes, to know that there was something horribly wrong there.  For me 12/14/12 will always be the day that I woke up.  I remember watching the news and just not believing what had happened, but sadly understanding how it could happen.  Mental illness is not something you can treat with heavy drugs and sedatives, unfortunately we have allowed ourselves to believe otherwise because it is easier than accepting the idea that we need to change things from the top down.  Mental health is something that we are only beginning to understand and it is premature even at this date and time to assume that anyone has a grasp on what the causes of diferent mental illnesses are, but the answers begin in nature, not chemistry.   We need to wake up as a society, stop living by the principle of least effort and make some serious changes to the way we deal with mental illness.  I am living proof that nutritional changes do work, just 4 months ago I was on heavy psychiatric medications, getting sicker and sicker, desperate and alone.  It was only after the pleading of my wife that I went to a homeopath, I had been trying to kick all of my medications since that awful day, but it was not a possibility until my body was at least somewhat physically healthy.  I am currently living as a wheat free, gluten free vegan and I feel remarkable, I am taking absolutely no chemical medications, the only substance I have a prescription for now is medical marijuana, say what you like, but if you had ever lived in these shoes you would truly understand how harmless that plant really is.  So sad that you can advertise something as evil and sould deadening as Paxil on television, but something like marijuana, which acts as both a natural anti depressant and natural anti anxiety substance, as well as being a natural muscle relaxer and a great digestive substance is not only federally illegal, don't even ask for the facts on how much money we waste on this each year, but is also deemed as being in the same category as cocaine.  So tell me, how can we ever be expected to have an honest conversation with our children about drugs if we can't even be honest with ourselves?

peace

so the past few weeks have been rough, hell the past few years have been rough but the past few weeks have really left a searing mark on my soul.  I went for a walk in an effort to clear my head, my fater has surgery tomorrow and I am obssessing about, it has now encompassed every aspect of my mind and my thoughts.  I have made the committed choice to go Vegan, wheat free, and gluten free for a year in order to help myself and help others and to show people that you don't need all those medications to keep you going, it is all within you, you just have to unlock it and find balance.  What a joy balance would be, if I could find that missing sense of equlibrium I know I could find peace.  I am chronicling all of this on my other website, www.radicalveganism.com I figure I have time right now to embrace something like this so I am going to seize the day.

     I have to say a couple of diferent things that are on my mind at the moment.  I am still aghast at what happened in Geenland NH over a year ago when police chief Maloney was shot to death by Cullen Mutrie, who also shot his girlfriend, Brittany Tibbetts and two other officers.  First I would like to say, I hope it was worth it, the small amount of pills that Tibbetts had sold to an undercover officer is supposedly what dru the large crowd of armed personnell to the site where Mutrie was living.  He was known to be dangerous and violent, perhaps even unhinged, if this was the case why was a safer bust not arranged, its not like tibbetts was hiding from the charge, her whereabouts was clearly known.  So why is it that the need was felt to arrest her in such a dangerous setting, not just dangerous for her, but as was clearly demonstrated by the amount of forces that arrived on the scene was clearly known to law enforcement in the area.  I am just saddened repeatedly when I think about the lives that were lost that didn't need to be, and yes this includes Tibbetts, who besides her family mourns for her?  There were no heroes here folks, yes there may have been some heroic acts during the matter, but they were acts that shouldn't have been necessary in the first place.

I also want to say something really quickly about the current political environments as it were.  People are getting downright hostile now, the political temperature is shooting through the roof, it seems that more and more americans are growing disenchanted with and paranoid of the government that we have.  My stance, we are all entitled to our own views, but this right that we have does not make it okay to hurt other people.  We are all human beings, though everyone is diferent we are all made up of the same elements, I only hope that as a society we can come to embrace this.  I say a lot of things and I shoot off at the mouth, but I am not asking anyone to live with me or trying to tell anyone how to live their life, I speak only for myself. 

I don't have anything else to say right now but I hope you are all well.

peace

www.radicalveganism.com

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peace

Quite interested to be attending a gathering a Dr. Lebro's tonight dealing with insomnia.  This is a problem that has plagued me relentlessly for years and being that tonight is my last night with xanax it plagues me even more.  I am hoping to gather some good information on relaxed, chemical free sleep, I don't want to have to tranquilize myself to sleep and I am willing to bet I won't have to.  I will let all of you know about what I learn.

peace